Going Through

It has been some time since my last post but it is not because I am not still going through. I am battling for my state of mind and for peace in my home! I am also starting to feel inadequate at my job. I feel like there are so many things I should have thought of when other people bring them to my attention or suggest something. I don't know exactly what I should be doing sometimes and I feel I am failing. It is so hard to focus anymore with all this going on in my head. I search on line many times looking for another job but I'm not sure what to look for. I don't even know what I do well besides speak and carry myself professionally. I send out resumes and never get a response.

I feel that I am becoming depressed and I am trying my best to fight it. I have to remind myself to eat most days. The other day I forced myself to eat even though I didn't feel like it. It's funny because my craving for coffee hasn't changed! I've developed a craving for wine as well. I'm sure that can't be good.

I am an emotional wreck! God please come rescue me.