Good Days

I seem to be ok the last two days. I still think about Roman and what happened but I am dealing with it for now. I feel like I'm clinging to my husband a lot lately. I hate it when he goes to work and I don't want him to leave my side when he comes home. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. Hopefully this will deepen our relationship. I've been getting up with him in the morning and packing his lunch and making his coffee. When he came home, dinner was on the stove and the laundry was done. He said yesterday was the best day he ever had! I'm going to try and keep that up.

I wonder if I am fooling myself. I try to stay busy at home. I washed every dirty piece of clothing in my house. Today I am going to wash everyone's blankets and clean out the refrigerator.

Yesterday I talked to my aunt about my cousins baby. I thought it would bother me but I wanted to talk about her. I can't wait to see her. I only hope I feel the same when they come into town next month. It isn't her fault my baby died and hers lived. I have to get over this somehow!

For now, I guess I will take the good days with the bad.