Sleep

I finally had a good nights sleep, with the help of a few glasses of wine. The pain from my c-section is starting to wear off as well so I don't feel so bad. I can't help but think about what to do with my life now? I have been so focused on this pregnancy and having this baby that nothing else really mattered. Now, all I can think about is a new exciting career, or the thought of trying again for another child.

The second time around on this journey seems to be a bit easier, but is it too soon to tell? Right now I am bombarded with visitors, phone calls, and cards. I wonder what it will be like when all that slows down. I seem to feel the worst in the middle of the night and in the morning.

I was able to put away all of the shower gifts with the help of my husband and a close friend. I was glad that no one tried to hide it to keep me from being sad. It gives me something to look forward to. I have all the blankets I need for sure!

Today I am going to try and get out and get my hair done and pick out an outfit for the service tomorrow.